self sabotage

My Inheritance

Sep 26, 2025

journal, poem

Appalachia, bipolar-disorder, childhood trauma, christianity, family, family trauma, family wounds, god, jesus, mental health, mental-illness, original poem, original poetry, original writing, poem, poetry, religion, self sabotage, writer, writing

I look in the mirror and see my mother. I see her in my gestures too— the disorder she passed down, or a few. She taught me hatred. Not toward other people—never. She taught me to hate myself, burned it into me with every cigarette she pressed between her fingers, smoke simmering into my skin.…
Grief & Bad Habits

Jul 10, 2025

poem

bad habits, grief, original poem, original poetry, original writing, poem, poetry, self destruction, self sabotage, writer, writing

Tell me, child, why do you betray yourself for grief? You choose to learn nothing in its hasty wake. Is it your desire to self-destruct? Or were you simply looking for that excuse to destroy yourself. — Janie Lyvon